Why?

Hello people

My mind's twisted.

Sometimes I feel like life just isn't enough for me.
I think I want too much but thats what keeps me going.

It kills me when I know, this is probably the best I can do.

Or if my life just works this way, until the end of time.

You may say I'm unrealistic, immature or that I dream too much.

I hate living in this tiny box, knowing how much I want to move out of it and be better.

There is so much more in life that I want to go after, but then again.

I've always wondered, are all doors close just because of who I am.

I despise the word normal

.

Even if its what everyone desires for, having a normal contented life.

My dear,

I love you, I really do.

But why recently I keep moody just because of you?

I know you always listen to me, and I am still not that satisfied.

You said you're a failure?

Okay, I can tell you, you're not a failure at all.

So please, please my dear, we've gone through so many things,

I hope we can forgive everything that which is not good to us.

What am I crying for?

I am just too weak ><

I keep telling myself not to cry easily yet finally I failed to do it.

Deep down I know that I can be so much more but yet it is me, myself who constantly throw my own faith away.

I will not give up but yet I'm searching for the courage to keep me going.

Deb deb ~